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| MTV Unplugged No.2.0 - Ms Lauryn Hill |
in this BEAUTIFUL 9 minute song that i wish went on forever, ms lauryn hill battles with the voice in her head telling her that finding peace of mind is impossible. i think i speak for all of us when i say we know the voice she's singing about. this voice can get real loud sometimes, telling us that we're somehow unworthy of happiness or peace and that tryna find it will reap nothing but disappointment. this voice is a liar; 'i know it's possible'. whenever this voice gets kinda loud or i start to believe its lies, i play this song.
through most of the song, she’s speaking to her higher self, her 'peace of mind'. she says that 'that old me is left behind', which is applicable to all of us; we're always evolving and transforming. 'he takes all my energy': we morph into what we give energy to. i think, in this song, hill wants us to give energy to that higher self; 'free your mind'. we trap ourselves by giving our energy to this self-criticism, then we see the world through a critical lens; making it hard to appreciate what's right in front of us. peace of mind requires no criticism of anything doing no harm. we can free our own minds. if we all give our energy to this source of love and happiness and peace within, instead of the negative, 'anything is possible.'
she isn't ignorant to the fact that this is a lot easier said than done; sometimes, like i said, those demons get real loud. to the point that you let them guide you. but, she tells us that 'everyday's another chance, to get it right this time.' you can really hear and feel that this line comes from somewhere deep within her soul, and i love the ideas behind it. nobody's perfect, and we all have these self-sabotaging and self-critical ideas and voices inside our heads, but every day is another chance to get it right. to pay less attention to those demons; to find peace of mind. to appreciate and be grateful for the gift of life, the gift of being able to see, walk, hear your favorite songs, be with your people, eat and live.
'he says there's no me without him.' THIS PART. there was a point in my life not long ago when i gave every ounce of my being to this self-criticism, and the world around me became ugly-looking to me. it became so normal to be negative that i centered my self around self deprecation and being judgemental. i thought there was no 'me' without it. if anyone can relate to that right now, i'm sending you a whole lotta good vibes. it's definitely a journey, one i'm not nearly done with, but one day you'll see the light at the end of that pitch-black tunnel. just make sure you're facing the right way.
i definitely find a sort of comfort in reminding myself that i'm responsible for myself and my peace of mind, and that i can pick myself up by being grateful and finding joy in the smallest of things. and that every day when i wake up, i get another chance to try, another chance to make some progress. this song reminds me of all of these things, and how much power and happiness awaits us when we decide to devote ourselves to being the best versions of ourselves.
'everyday's another chance.' please remember that. imma try to do the same.
k.
xxxx
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